When my aunt came into the room and found me awake I thought its just heat that is making me struggle to sleep. She said to me quit overthinking and get some rest you need it, and she’s right. Its almost midnight and i’m still awake, something rare because I never run out of sleep. I have listened to the sermon twice, it came at a time I needed it most. Thank you for the sermons that come through from Willow Springs, they bless my heart.
The reminder to be humble in our faith hits us when we least expect. I’ve had experiences of Jesus showing up not how I expect him to but having gone through it doesn’t make it easy when you’re expectant of him now. A couple of times I’ve also tried to twist God’s hand saying I serve a God of now who shows up now and never fails. On the 4th of March I received a regret letter for a graduate program I applied for with UBC. It hit me. I had it figured out, how useful that graduate degree will be, so time allocated for school was now in order for every other plan to fall into place. I get it now. He is saying ‘my daughter I made the promise but not yet.’ Not yet is painful because when it comes through it sounds like a no. I generally put in so much energy into what I do that my grief comes in anger and depression before acceptance. I have been applying for graduate programs a lot even before my IVEP mission. Coming to the acceptance of not yet has been hard because of the financial sacrifices I am constantly making in shipping documents, application fees and securing housing with the hope of a placement for school. I made calculations for God on how my life should go but He has his plans. Good plans. Jeremiah 29:11.
He gave me a job with World Vision Zimbabwe, a job that practically sought me when I wasn’t looking in that particular direction. Unemployment rate in my country is so high around 90% making it hard to secure a job. Most people hustle through daily life to keep their families afloat. I’ve only been 2 months on the job but it feels like forever because I have worked with everyone within those two months including all my superiors, the directors and the COO for Southern Africa overseeing 9 countries who visited the country for 2 days. It is nothing close to my wisdom. It totally is God’s doing. When I think I have it figured out He shows He’s got it figured out. Always, He superceeds my expectations. I don’t have much to say but to acknowledge Isaiah 55:8-9. Jesus never shows up how we expect him to but how we need him to. He is never late.
When my aunt came into the room and found me awake I thought its just heat that is making me struggle to sleep. She said to me quit overthinking and get some rest you need it, and she’s right. Its almost midnight and i’m still awake, something rare because I never run out of sleep. I have listened to the sermon twice, it came at a time I needed it most. Thank you for the sermons that come through from Willow Springs, they bless my heart.
The reminder to be humble in our faith hits us when we least expect. I’ve had experiences of Jesus showing up not how I expect him to but having gone through it doesn’t make it easy when you’re expectant of him now. A couple of times I’ve also tried to twist God’s hand saying I serve a God of now who shows up now and never fails. On the 4th of March I received a regret letter for a graduate program I applied for with UBC. It hit me. I had it figured out, how useful that graduate degree will be, so time allocated for school was now in order for every other plan to fall into place. I get it now. He is saying ‘my daughter I made the promise but not yet.’ Not yet is painful because when it comes through it sounds like a no. I generally put in so much energy into what I do that my grief comes in anger and depression before acceptance. I have been applying for graduate programs a lot even before my IVEP mission. Coming to the acceptance of not yet has been hard because of the financial sacrifices I am constantly making in shipping documents, application fees and securing housing with the hope of a placement for school. I made calculations for God on how my life should go but He has his plans. Good plans. Jeremiah 29:11.
He gave me a job with World Vision Zimbabwe, a job that practically sought me when I wasn’t looking in that particular direction. Unemployment rate in my country is so high around 90% making it hard to secure a job. Most people hustle through daily life to keep their families afloat. I’ve only been 2 months on the job but it feels like forever because I have worked with everyone within those two months including all my superiors, the directors and the COO for Southern Africa overseeing 9 countries who visited the country for 2 days. It is nothing close to my wisdom. It totally is God’s doing. When I think I have it figured out He shows He’s got it figured out. Always, He superceeds my expectations. I don’t have much to say but to acknowledge Isaiah 55:8-9. Jesus never shows up how we expect him to but how we need him to. He is never late.